Wants a better deal.
Wants to rise.
Wants to snap.
Wants to talk.
Wants to exclaim.
Wants to react.
Someone has to stay steady, hold guard.
Conservation of Committee Mass
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Friday, July 3, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
A random life
The thought i've suppressed for a lot of time : I'm leading a random life. I don't see myself making any growth. Yes i've met new people, i've had fun, its new life, but I'm not learning, I don't have that time and attention for myself anymore.
I feel as if i'm stagnating.
I like *work*, but sometimes, after saying it so many times, the nagging thought in some dark little corner of my brain is : Do i really like it or do i say i like it?
I hate mediocrity and yet haven't learnt to live with it.
Stagnation.
Sometimes i wish i could take a year off. And do thing i LIKE. Paint. Read. Travel. Be with myself. Learn. Grow. Discover.
Sadly, thats not a pleasure i can allow myself. No, i would not do that even if i could, since there's so much *decided* in the scheme of things, that I just can't break away.
But i'm growing dissatisfied by the minute. I feel random. I feel lost. Professionally, no. But in all other aspects, yes. RANDOM.
I make random friends. I want relationships with a firm grounding. Conversations with a meaning. The whole world of social interactions, with more meaning.
Stagnation is the key word here.
I feel as if i'm stagnating.
I like *work*, but sometimes, after saying it so many times, the nagging thought in some dark little corner of my brain is : Do i really like it or do i say i like it?
I hate mediocrity and yet haven't learnt to live with it.
Stagnation.
Sometimes i wish i could take a year off. And do thing i LIKE. Paint. Read. Travel. Be with myself. Learn. Grow. Discover.
Sadly, thats not a pleasure i can allow myself. No, i would not do that even if i could, since there's so much *decided* in the scheme of things, that I just can't break away.
But i'm growing dissatisfied by the minute. I feel random. I feel lost. Professionally, no. But in all other aspects, yes. RANDOM.
I make random friends. I want relationships with a firm grounding. Conversations with a meaning. The whole world of social interactions, with more meaning.
Stagnation is the key word here.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Ridiculous!
Last night, i was watching the news, and here's what i came across.
Venkaiah Naidu, a prominent politician, is heading a Rajya Sabha Committee to decide whether sex education must be imparted in schools and colleges. Here's what our leader had to say :
So what are you proposing mister? Since we are a country of saints, kids must never know things and people should die of Sexually Transmitted Diseases due to lack of awareness? Hats off!
Venkaiah Naidu, a prominent politician, is heading a Rajya Sabha Committee to decide whether sex education must be imparted in schools and colleges. Here's what our leader had to say :
India is a country of saints, and hence it would be blasphemy to mention sex education in front of kids.
So what are you proposing mister? Since we are a country of saints, kids must never know things and people should die of Sexually Transmitted Diseases due to lack of awareness? Hats off!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I'm home for a month :-) i love the feeling!
Texted someone today,with a single word - back. For some reason,my mind is made up to not see the person in question ever again. Something that freaked me out last time we met. Just a glint in those eyes. Hence the resolve.
Texted someone today,with a single word - back. For some reason,my mind is made up to not see the person in question ever again. Something that freaked me out last time we met. Just a glint in those eyes. Hence the resolve.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
You say you are happy with life.
You act like the happiest person on earth all the time.
You smile a lot when you talk.
You use a hundred smileys and do a hundred kiddish things when you talk to people.
You sit and code as if there's no tomorrow.
As if each piece of code that you write will change the course of the world.
When it comes to those funny tags on orkut/facebook, you are always tagged as the blissful/content/satisfied/happy one.
The one thing that you draw strength out of, is the fact that you KNOW.
One fine day, something hits you. You don't know WHAT. The rational pillar of your world collapses. You sit in a corner, trying to catch your breath. You see the world going by, at its own frantic pace. You do not sign on to any messenger that day. Yout phone rings and you don't know what to say. Texts go unreplied cos words elude you.
Strange. But the aftermath of it is peace. Feels cleansed :)
You act like the happiest person on earth all the time.
You smile a lot when you talk.
You use a hundred smileys and do a hundred kiddish things when you talk to people.
You sit and code as if there's no tomorrow.
As if each piece of code that you write will change the course of the world.
When it comes to those funny tags on orkut/facebook, you are always tagged as the blissful/content/satisfied/happy one.
The one thing that you draw strength out of, is the fact that you KNOW.
One fine day, something hits you. You don't know WHAT. The rational pillar of your world collapses. You sit in a corner, trying to catch your breath. You see the world going by, at its own frantic pace. You do not sign on to any messenger that day. Yout phone rings and you don't know what to say. Texts go unreplied cos words elude you.
Strange. But the aftermath of it is peace. Feels cleansed :)
Thursday, May 7, 2009
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