Things are looking up. But personally, i'm clueless. I have no idea where am i going. I can't control things that are beyond my control (obvious, i know).
There's a part of my life missing. The part where i can be myself. With someone else. With myself, i'm myself. But i want someone else i can be myself with.
I don't want to be the cute person people expect me to be. Yes, i'm cute, but its not a full-time job. Its a part of me, not the whole of me. Its a strain to be cute, to talk in riddles, to talk in a make-believe world. I want to be me.
I'm practical. I'm dreamy. I'm me. Yes, this is possible, who said you have to choose always? If you're good enough, you'll have both. If you have the clarity of thought, you'll realise its not either or. I have it.
Who made these categories best friend, next best friend blah blah? Who said the best friend must know everything and that its treason otherwise? Selective availibility. Instinct. Sometimes its a function of instinct, time and distance.
There are people. People i talk to. People who talk of something else. But there are rays of hope. A childhood friend. Who gladly is not judgemental. Whom i've struck the right chords with, pretty late in life. As always, i'm scared of this being a burst. I don't know. So far so good :) Free fall is unconditional, right? :)
3 reflections:
Good luck! :) Keep your eyes, ears and mind open. :)
It happened late but it happened, isn't it? So don't worry about all that.
i think i know who u are talking abt ... nice post !
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