Sometimes

....... you realise that ideas are a big piece of crap. There are more real things that matter.

 

Compatibility is a whole big hogwash. Function of time and instinct.

 

Durability? You must be joking!

Mixed Bag

Today morning was a real mixed bag, i mean, how many things possibly happen at the same time. Let me start :

 

I was walking to the bus  and a stone ripped (a bit) through the sole of my left foot :( Then we finally managed to bargain within reason with the auto guy and reached office. My first day of the week at work started with a visit to the first aid center. Then i went to my team room and set up my laptop (which usually means untangling a mess of wires). Just as i was untangling the mess, dad called. And the network wasn't good, so the conversation was shouty-shouty, so i had to step out with the phone (a nice blue LAN cable tagging along). Now i was just passing through the door (which is a bit smaller than the average size, so only two people can pass through comfortably). So as luck would have it, i crossed a fellow intern at the door. After the customary good morning, (i'm still at the door, walking out n holding the phone), he leans down to my ears ( He's considerably taller :P) and whispers ' Beautiful earings' . Yes the same ear where i'm holding the phone with dad on the line.Talk of timing :P And i say thanks and move on. And my bandage gives way and unrolls from my feet.

 

 

Bah. Talk of an eventful day.

My day

In the bus. On my way back. Dejected. Irritated. Frustrated of mediocrity. A nice sample of the day is - my trainer told me - lady,you don't need to know how it works! Just remember these commands. Why do you want to know more?

Tidbits about me

This is my 100th post, in this blog.

So i decided to write a lot of jumbled up stuff and update all of you

I'm living on my own, finally. Sans family. N no, it is not a nice feeling.

I've been accepted to the top 2 choices on my grad school list. Waiting on the other two.

I've realised that i'm too much of a hopless romantic to ever improve.

Vodafone must send me an appreciation letter, for all the revenue i'm generating for them.

I've realised that i'm a contradiction.

That random conversations can be fun. So talking to RG is fun.

Coffee beans are not as bitter as a lot of other things.

I love working. I'm this self motivated machine when it comes to working, and i enjoy it.

I have my vision clear(er) now. I know what i want, but i'm not sure if the shortest path to that point is the best one (considering the people in my life n around me)

I realised that being online for too long gives you this empty feeling.

I love dreaming. And i'm capable of missing people.

My standards for men seem to have solidified :P Note that this is strictly in a joking sense, and only for people i don't know. Coming to the point, either they should be chivalrous, or should have a cute bunny grin/teeth :D

I'm happy :)

King of Fools

These words mesmerise me somehow.

They make me sit still and *hear*

I worry that I can't give you what you need

That you'll find nothing underneath the peel

That I can't undo the times we disagreed

That I can't ignore the way I feel

Cos what I feel is the only truth I know

And I get by on this naivete of youth

If what I feel is the only truth

And what I give out will make up what I'll receive

Can I leave behind my naivete of youth?

Will I be crucified for wanting to believe?

I believe

Could you hold us up if I would drag us down?

Resurrect emotions from our past

N' if they had a king for fools would you wear the crown?

Build us up again and make us last

Cos what I feel is the only truth for me

And I get by on this naivete of youth

If what I feel is the only truth

And what I give out will make up what I'll receive

Can I still leave behind my naivete of youth?

Will I be crucified for wanting to believe?

I believe

And if we don't worry about a thing

Will we be sorry when the rain is falling again

And what does it matter

If fortune should favor

It's never the final amen

If what I feel is the only truth

And what I give out will make up what I'll receive

Can I still leave behind my naivete of youth?

Will I be crucified for wanting to believe?

I believe

Six Random Things

I've been tagged (finally! :P)

Here are the rules ~

1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Write six random things about yourself.
4. Tag six people at the end of your post and link to them.
5. Let each person know they’ve been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

I'm still thinking whom to tag. Everyone who reads is tagged!

• I love shaded light. Yes oxymoron i know.
• I have a crazy paranoia of slipping. On the floor. On the staircase. Anything
• When i sense motion somewhere in the background, i get startled (i think its a lizard)
• I wake up and think *Oh gosh, i dreamt of the wrong person. Damn.* Seriously.
• I have to have texted good nights or good night calls. gtalk doesn't do it for me.

Well, is this random enough?

Things

To pour your heart out to someone in the middle of night. Once. The sacred geometry of chance.

To hit the panic button on the phone n pouring your fears out to the same person. Again. NOT chance. NO. That is Will.

Free fall.

My latest phrand

**** love6684 <****love6684@gmail.com>
hi my-name,, i think u r like lotus, n love it
organize your friends

Google Talk Options
Allow this user to chat with me
Is **** your friend?

The **** was a name i cut out. for the phrand's privacy.

Random Ponderings

Met RG for coffee a couple of days back. (As an aside, the coffee gave me a little tummy upset. Can't trust CCD now : )

We talked of a lot of random things. And it was so much fun! To have no agenda and still not have a single dull moment.

Here's something he always, *each time* tells me : God! You are a contradiction! You shouldn't exist.

And oh boy, its hilarious to look at his face when he says that! I love it!

At one point, i said, You know, people aren't unique. When they leave we think oh-there-can-be-no-one-else-like-him/her, but it isn't so. I surprised myself when i said that. God! My mind wanders at some supersonic speed.

As yet another aside, sometimes we realise things about ourselves when talking to people. Like in these random discussions, when my mind was wandering around, i realised that there's nothing like an *ideal match*, as our dear orkut seems to suggest. There's no checklist which would make matters perfect. There's not just one kind of person we can like. Atleast for me, its true. Its this perfect mix of chemistry, ideologies, ideas, thoughts, actions, goals and what not. The sacred geometry of chance.
Its surprising to know oneself!

Though there is one thing i respect in people : the ability to make decisions.

But it was fun to have new viewpoints on what i think and do. It was like a whiff of fresh air, and i laughed a lot. I thought.

Of How things can be viewed differently with different perceptions.

On how objectivism crosses paths with morality somewhere

On how the middle path has left of centre and right of centre.

On how much of compartmentalisation have i achieved in my life.

On how people are made, with the kind of lives they've lead till now.

On how its possible to respect/understand a viewpoint, though i might not agree with it, at all.

But it was fun :)

i learnt that its possible to like people a lot,without having anything in common.

P.S As always, my posts are a flurry. But i love them that way. This is how my mind works :)